Lagrime di Tadeusz Eterno

Can't Sleep

2008-01-06T14:28:03Z

I was ok for a good while. I was in better spirits. Just as I was going to bed, John texts me talking about how he's been with his new boyfriend and just drove him home. Bleh. I feel sick now. :(

Back in California

2007-12-24T09:24:08Z

John's away message reads "If you are a friend, ensure that I don't talk to Adrian anymore."

He abandoned me for another boy and blocked me out of his life. I'm not a very happy boy tonight. What a nice Christmas present. :(

Im on my own for a while

2007-08-20T17:57:21Z

Drinking stolen koolaid from Vons, sweetened with stolen sugar packets from Jack in the box just isnt the same without Ziggie being here to share it with. Going down the street to Pinkberry isn't as fun as going there with Ziggie was, either. Indian food buffet isn't quite as tasty. Coca-Cola isnt as refreshing. Watching Black Books isn't as entertaining. There are a lot of things that I'll miss doing with that crazy boy- even just sitting and doing nothing.

survey

2007-06-10T20:19:27Z

*What's your favorite....*
Beverage (non-alc) ?	tea
Color ?	sea green
Food ?	fish of all sorts
Item of clothing ?	sinful shirt
Meal of the day ?	dinner
Feature on yourself ?	mouth?
Quality in a guy/girl ?	sex appeal haha
Phrase ?	fer serious
Song ?	Enjoy the Silence
Musical Artist/Band ?	Depeche Mode
Sport ?	Soccer
Movie ?	Fellini Satyricon
TV Show ?	The Sopranos
Radio Station ?	Indie 103.1
Type of Chocolate ?	um.. sweet?
Eye Color ?	blue
*Do you/Have you ever....*
Have any pets ?	kittie
Have any piercings ?	ears, lip (side)
Have any tatoos ?	no
Cheat on a boyfriend/girlfriend	no
Gone skinny dipping ?	maybe
Been to Europe ?	obviously
Been to an island ?	Hawaii, Great Britain, Rugen, Capri, Venice
Had stitches ?	no
Broken any bones ?	no
Been stabbed/shot ?	stabbed, but it was more like a knife fight.
Slept until after 12:00 ?	yes
Stayed up all night ?	of course
Hooked up with 2 people in one weekend ?	probably
Turned down a dare ?	proabably
*Which friend....*
Is the funniest ?	oh thats difficult. different types of humour.
Is the prettiest ?	John
Is the most handsom ?	Hm. Dont know.
Is the loudest ?	Flora
Is the craziest ?	Flora
Is the most shy ?	Flora haha
Is the most loving ?	none
Is the most understanding ?	Salem
Is the most boring ?	I dont have boring friends
Is the richest ?	i dont know that
Is the most athletic ?	i dont know
Is the most cocky ?	Zaq maybe
Is the most wordly/cultured ?	Julian possibly
Do you look up to the most ?	dont know
Do you tell everything to ?	Salem
Has the best clothes ?	lots of them do
Has the best house ?	not sure
*Would you ever....*
Eat pizza with chocolate chips ?	no
Kiss someone of the same sex ?	of course
Cheat on someone you love ?	no
Run away from home ?	...
Lie to your parents ?	yes
Lie to your boyfriend/girlfriend ?	depends on why.
Lie to your best friend ?	doubt it
Give a homeless person money ?	i have
Run from the police ?	i have
Bungee jump ?	nah
Sky dive ?	FUCK no
Cross dress ?	sure
Be an exotic dancer ?	nah
Walk out of a restaurant without paying ?	i have
Scuba dive ?	ok
Go rock climbing ?	nah
Go spulunking (caving) ?	meh
*What do you think of when you hear....*
Eminem ?	candy
Bologna ?	city in Italy
Hott ?	boy
Orange ?	juice
Real world ?	Life on MTV
Jack ?	cute
Cucumber ?	dishwater
Hip-Hop ?	black people
Uniform ?	Military
UniCORN ! ?	Death Metal
Rainbow ?	West Hollywood
Clown ?	Dr. Roxo
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Pictures from Club Party Monster

2006-10-29T02:51:20Z

tadzio_di_pola @ 2006-09-21T12:58:00

2006-09-21T20:05:50Z

last night we each had a cigarette in silence before he got out of the car in front of his house. When we were done he put the strap of his bag over his arm. We gave each other a long hug and he rested his head on my shoulder. Sealed it with a kiss goodbye, and then he got out and closed the door. I dont think I'll ever see him again.

New Hair

2006-09-21T00:48:05Z

NEW PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-14T02:57:23Z

Its been quite a long time since I last posted, But this is what I look like, more or less My hair isnt green but its metallic so it reflects on the colours around it.

Im TRYING to go back to blonde

2006-06-17T21:30:03Z

Its all white underneathe, but the rest is being really stubborn. At least my hair quality is holding out nicely. After colour remover and bleach its still healthy and strong.

and another random picture of me to show how healthy and strong the REST of me is these days.

Ophelia stole my boyfriend

2006-06-07T14:35:39Z

So Ophelia has been staying with me for about a week before she goes back to NY. I guess during this time, as in as soon as she got here, my Englishboy developed a crush on her. Now Im out of the picture. I dont even sleep in my room anymore. They do. I sleep in the office. I dont blame Ophelia. Its not like she tried to get him to fall for her. I dont blame him either. Its not like he can control who he's attracted to.

New shit

2006-03-27T01:31:15Z

YARRRR IT BE SNOWING..MYARRR

2005-12-02T19:58:06Z

I am now on the east coast. Ill be in the UK as of Christmas day. Come see me while Im here. <3

Last Saturday

2005-11-22T12:10:26Z

So Since Im leaving to Baltimore on the 30th November, I've been trying to spend as much time with my friends here as possible. On Friday i went with Salem and Sunset Blvd for a small party. That was pleasant. Then we left to take Rob to the DMV for his shit. He forgot his paperwork though. So we went to The Coffee Bean instead which was FINE by me. The plan was for Nate to come to LA to meet us for sushi, but he couldnt get a ride. So we went and picked him up, Salem puked from the drinking on Friday. And we spent several hours in the hot car stuck in LA traffic on nearly every motorway.

When we got there I had a nice joint and when Salem felt recovered I drove us all back to Studio City for the sushi. It was most delicious and such.

Afterward we hit two art shows and went to Tempest for Ladytron. Some fat chick pushed her way ahead of everyone through the line so I yelled "THASSA HUUUUUGE BITCH!!" in a deep voice. Everyone seemed to agree. Then on the inside I got a free martini (the bartender was pissed) and me and Rob did this (see below) like 5 or 6 times on the dancefloor before we went to the car and I passed out in thew back seat. O_o Other stuff happened after that, but I myself do not remember any of it and cannot be held accountable.

oh yeah, by the way, I have black hair now...

>_>

♥

2005-10-20T19:00:21Z

I love Hunniebee.

Pictures from [the drive to] Venice Beach

2005-09-10T23:52:16Z

I dont know why... but yea. Why not?

Micah and me being pimps or some shit.

Salem took the first picture.. I wasn't very enthusiastic about it.

So I made a pouty face to show that I was discontent and stuff.

But soon afterward I changed my mind about not wanting the camera in my face and I made a biiiig smile and everything was nice and happayyy.

the end.

I am an artist

2005-08-20T10:12:09Z

I made this famous french painting tonight for my friend.

cell phone pictures! BLEH!

2005-07-31T02:54:39Z

I... dont know why there is a huge space here... there shouldnt be. :X

i cant really look like a man, but I can sometimes look like a boy at least. and yes. I AM a boy. :)

eep! dramatic!

whateva

sleepy.. just woke up. didnt remember where I was until 10 seconds later. yesterdays makeup. bleh!

tadzio_di_pola @ 2005-07-19T22:36:00

2005-07-20T05:39:47Z

I HATE kids, and I HATE 13, 14, 15, and 16 year old girls. HATE. I want them to DIE. I want them to BURN. I want them to SUFFER and BURN and DIE. They annoy me to no end and should all be killed in a massive petroleum fire.

New Pictures..

2005-07-16T21:12:36Z

I wish I could stay

2005-06-30T11:13:04Z

Wellllll it looks like I have no choice but to move to Toronto. I'm excited about going because Ive been offered a pretty nice deal as far as living conditions go. But.. I really hate to leave Los Angeles at the same time. It has really started feeling like home this year. I've become pretty attached to several people. One of them doesn'y know quite how attached I really am. I should probably tell him- might as well.

There is a chance I'll stay in L.A. If I can find roommates within a month and if those gay guys at those stores on Sunset Blvd hire me (haha) >:D then I can stay. It'll be difficult but possible. If not, then I'm not going to try to make this California thing work. I'll really miss my good friends here though. When i got here three years ago, I wasnt planning on this happening. I wasnt supposed to stay long. Bleh. This kinda sucks.

Mona Dria

2005-06-20T09:04:51Z

how about a smiley one? There havent been enough of those. At least if it's frozen in a picture, we can pretend.

good night.

Yep...

2005-06-18T20:56:31Z

I think I'm done with clubs. I was kind of done with them 5 years ago, but I refused to realise it. The problem is, I can't think of anything I'm NOT done with. Maybe I should buy a rocking chair now.

Actually, I think I just need to get out of Los Angeles now. It's about time. This place reminds me of too many depressing things.

two random pictures

2005-06-11T00:05:21Z

Theres not much to say about them other than "heres me"
I woke up and found a camera, so I used it.

ugh

2005-06-07T14:01:58Z

Well Im definitely in love with this boy. I should probably get over it if I know whats best. This is likely going to take a lonnnnnggggg time though u_u

*sighhhhhh*

DAS BUNKER- 05 MAY 2005

2005-05-11T12:47:22Z

Here is a random picture taken of Smash, Ophelia, and me at Das Bunker last friday night. Too bad it's blurry, but... whaddya gonna do? *shrug* I'm desperate for any kind of picture updates. My friend in Berkeley hasn't yet sent me my camera charger which I left at his house. So I haven't been able to take any pictures of my own for a long time :(

Ophelia doesn't like the way she looks in the picture, but in actuality, she looked very nice, as she always does. Duh. We all looked pretty nice that night. Smash looked ohh so pretty. Her hair and makeup was just... perfect. :) And my outfit and hairspray was really working out for me. My clothing was coordinated as fucking hell even though it's hard to appreciate from that picture. There wasn't THAT much of a view as far as pretty boys to look at. But there was a good handful of them that we made sure not to let out of our sight most of the time ^_^. One of them started flirting with me on the smoking patio (in a very polite- [really CUTE, even] way) and I kind of shunned him away. And then I felt bad about it so I thought of being EXTRA nice to him to make up for it when i saw him later. But ultimately I decided that would have been too out of character, haha. Good mood or not- Extra nice?? That's just not really me, now IS IT? XD

Yeh... and Ophelia met Davey Havok there after 3 years or something. I walked up to her as she was talking to him and just stood there thinking.. "Hmm.. he looks kinda familiar. Do i know him?" I didn't know it was him. And i didn't care- I don't get excited over celebrities, and aside from that, I think AFI sucks so....haha I'd have no reason to have recognised him. I'm not a fan. I just assumed he was some friend of a friend of a friend that I'd seen around somewhere before. :p So all I was thinking at the time was.. "Im standing right here... why has she not yet introduced me to her friend who is right in front of me? That's odd.." Then when we walked away she told me who he was and I was like "Ohhhhhhh.... really?" Thats about all, I guess.

Now here's the picture. Just one: